Another Confession

If I haven't said this before, I'll say it here: I am going through a theological mid-life crisis. I'm not doubting any of the significant concepts of Christianity, but I am reassessing much of what I was taught and unlearning a lot more. I am at one of those places where I feel like an idiot...I don't know anything.

In these times of perplexity I am reminded of the lyrics of a song by that great philosopher, Billy Joel (yes, I am dating myself).

Shades of Grey

River Of Dreams Released: 1993

Some things were perfectly clear, seen with the vision of youth
No doubts and nothing to fear, I claimed the corner on truth
These days it's harder to say I know what I'm fighting for
My faith is falling away
I'm not that sure anymore

Shades of grey wherever I go
The more I find out the less that I know
Black and white is how it should be
But shades of grey are the colors I see

Once there were trenches and walls and one point of every view
Fight 'til the other man falls - kill him before he kills you
These days the edges are blurred, I'm old and tired of war
I hear the other man's words
I'm not that sure anymore

Shades of grey are all that I find
When I look to the enemy line
Black and white was so easy for me
But shades of grey are the colors I see

Now with the wisdom of years, I try to reason things out
And the only people I fear are those who never have doubts
Save us all from arrogant men, and all the causes they're for
I won't be righteous again
I'm not that sure anymore

Shades of grey are all that I find
When I look to the enemy line
Ain't no rainbows shining on me
Shades of grey are the colors I see

Shades of grey wherever I go
The more I find out the less that I know
Ain't no rainbows shining on me
Shades of grey are the colors I see

(Taken from: http://www.billyjoel.com/site.html)